why did i even make this?

i've been thinking about that. i really don't know. maybe it's because i secretly think i have thoughts that are actually worth being heard, although i would never tell them (who would listen?) or maybe i just wish my thoughts were worthy of being heard. i think i'm wise, but maybe i know nothing. but maybe i do. i've been confused lately.. thinking about life. how things change, how things are over rated, what's right and what's wrong. i want to go into a cacoon and completely change. well, not completely. i guess i have the power to change the things i want to, i just need a little motivation. i've been seeking that motivation and have yet to find it. i know i can do anything when i put my heart and soul into it, it just takes the right time for that to happen. i can't make myself do anything i don't want to do in my heart. i've been feeling some regret lately which is really out of the ordinary. for just random little things i've said or done in the past that haven't meant anyting until now when i think about them. it's funny, even though i know people won't read this.. i still can't spill out all of my feelings. maybe this will have some signifigance someday, most likely not, other than the fact i'll be able to look back and see how goofy i was. oh, and yes i did play in the snow today.



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